Ratings:  Sex, Alcohol, Drug, Abuse you make the decision

Disclaimer:  I do not own or know Eddie Guerrero.  I own myself, thats about it.

Distribution:  Whoever wants to read it.  This is pure fiction, please do not take it for real, this is fiction.

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Wasted

By:  Def Leppard

Well I've been lying awake all night just thinking of you
But a bottle of whiskey lies heavy obstructing my view
I've got a bottle of pills to give me my thrills
And I know that I'm leading a life that kills

Wasted - I've wasted my time
Wasted - I'm shooting a line
Wasted - I'm stuck in a hole
Wasted - I'm losing control

And I've been meaning to call, I've been wanting to phone
You see I don't like the thought of leaving you here alone
Well I've seen things down here that are fit for a queen
I've seen things down here that should never be seen

Wasted - I've wasted my money
Wasted - I've wasted you honey
Wasted - I'm out of my brain
Wasted - I'm going insane

I'm running in thin air
There's nothingness everywhere
I've gotta get out, oh won't you help me?
I've gotta get out, oh won't you help me?
I've gotta get out, oh won't you help me get out?

I thought I saw you just the other day
But it couldn't be you 'cos you had nothing to say
'He's going away', they told all my friends
Well now I'll be stuck in here til the misery ends

Wasted - I've wasted my time
Wasted - I'm shooting a line
Wasted - I'm out of my head
Wasted - I wish I was dead

Eddie, dont you think you had enough ?  Sandra told him.

Slow down Mamacita, dont get mad at me like that ?  Eddie replied to her with his perfect grin in his face.  Sandra couldnt get mad at him when he would look at her with that smile.

But Eddie, its 9:00 am on a Saturday morning and you are already drinking Jack Daniels ? she told him starting to worry about his habit.

Everything is okay, its just that my back is hurting me a little bit and I need something to relax he said to her.

What Sandra didnt know was that he had taken pain killers just before she walked in the living room and saw him drinking his glass of Whiskey.  Sandra was scared for Eddie.  For the past 3 months, he has been complaining of back pain and muscle pain, but he wouldnt go see a doctor.  He thought that with the pain killers that he got from the company doctor, everything would be fine.  She was worrying that it would just escalated to get worst and worst and she could loose him.

She told him that she was going to do some groceries and that she would be right back.  Eddie looked at her and blew her a kiss, letting her know that he loved her and that he would be waiting for her.

As soon as she closed the door, he made sure that she was in the truck and driving away from the garage entrance to go to their bedroom.  He opened his closet and pulled out a little purple bag that he had hidden in one of his suit pocket.  The size of the bag was maybe the size of a lighter.   When he got the bag, he went back downstairs, went to the bathroom to get the little mirror, and a razor blade.  Walked out of the bathroom and went to the living room, where he sat on he couch.  Place the mirror on the table and emptied his little bag on the mirror.  He started cutting lines of coke on the mirror.  He cut three.  Then, went to the kitchen, got a straw that he cut a part of, went back to the couch and started sniffing the lines of coke.  After he did the three lines, his nose was itching.  He took big breath and then, relaxed on the couch.

He was such in a high that he didnt even realized that he left the mirror and the razor blade on the table.  All of a sudden, Sandra came back from the groceries.  She open the door, but called Eddie to come and help her with the groceries bag.  No answers from Eddie, then, she started walking towards the living room and screamed his name again, maybe he was upstairs in their room.  She dropped three bags in the kitchen and walked back to the door.  She turned her head to look in the living room and stopped at the view of the table.  She couldnt believe what she was seeing and decided to take a closer look to the table.  When she walked around the couch, she saw that Eddie was passed out on the couch.  She took the mirror and tasted the white powder to make sure that it was what she thought.  Sure enough, I was pure coke.  Her first reaction was to yell at Eddie, but what would be the point, hes so high and passed out, that it wouldnt change anything.

Sandra knew from his past that he was addicted to pain killers and alcohol, but never knew about drugs.  She was there to help him thru his hard time and never gave up on him.  Sandra and Eddie were together for now 5 years, and lets say that Sandra had more bad times that good times.  Not because Eddie didnt love Sandra, but more into that Eddie was in really deep shit and if it wasnt for Sandra, he could have been dead by now.  She stuck with him thru all the withdrawals from pain killers and alcohol, but she never knew about the drugs.  She knew also that Eddie didnt believe in doctors for his back pain, and his answer to that was, well, they cannot do anything about back aches, and they will give me pain killer.  That was Eddies solution for everything.  But now, that she found out about the coke, she was going to face him and give him a deadline about rehab.  And there would be not a lot of options either for him to choose from.

A couple of hours later, Sandra was sitting on the love seat in the living room watching TV.  It was about 9:00 PM and Eddie just started to wake up.  She didnt even move or asked him how he felt.  Eddie sat up on the couch and when he saw her sitting in the love seat, he decided to go and cuddle with her.  He sat on Sandras legs and put his arm around her neck, ready to kiss her until she snapped at him and told him to get out, she couldnt see the movie on TV.  Eddie wasnt used to Sandra talking back to him like that.  Usually, he would give her one of his famous smile and talk to her erotically in Spanish.  But this time, it didnt worked.  Eddie stood up and asked her what was her problem.  Sandra decided to shut off the TV and stood up in front of him.

Okay Eddie, tell me more about this ??? Sandra said showing him the mirror and the straw.

Eddie didnt know what to say and started his dont-know-what-to-do-right-now.  He just stood up and looked on the floor.

Eddie, Im talking to you, what the fuck is going on ???  Since when do you sniff coke ????  Sandra said loosing her patience.

Mammy, I just needed a few lines for my back pain. As he was trying to say but got cut dry by her.

Enough of that bullshit, I thought the pain killers were for your back pain.  You know what, Ive been thru a lot with you, but thats it.  You gonna clean up your act, or you will loose me forever she told him, turning her back to him and going upstairs to their bedroom.

Eddie started to follow her until she turned around and told him:  Dont even think that you will be sleeping with me tonight, the couch is there, use it again she threw at him with no remorse.

He knew that he screwed up again, and this time, she was not going to help him.  He decided to go for a ride and to clear his mind.  Sandra heard the engine of his Trans Am and she didnt even tried to stop him.  She did loved him a lot, and that maybe, by giving him a wake up call, that it would be good for him.

6 hours later, the phone rang.  It woke Sandra up and picked up the phone.

Mrs. Diaz ? a male voice asked on the line.

Yes, who are you ????  she said with a sleepy voice still.

Im Sgt. Bellot from the Florida PD, we found your name and phone number in Mr. Eddie Guerreros wallet.  Eddie was involved in a car accident, nothing major, but he will be arrested and thrown in jail for incapacity of driving.  He seemed to not be himself the Sgt. told Sandra.

Fine, do you guys need more at the Police Station ? she asked.

Well, if you want to see Eddie, you will have to come or if you want to bail him until he gets his court date  the Sgt. told her.

Fine, Ill be there tomorrow morning, and how much will the bail be ? she asked.

Bail should be about $500.00 he answered back.

Fine, I will go and take the money out of his bank account and pay the bail she told him and hung up the phone.

The next morning, Sandra went to the bank, took the money out and went to the Police station to bail Eddie.  He wasnt too proud of him and he couldnt even look at Sandra in her face.  The ride back home was really quiet.

Of course, the news linked in the Internet and Eddies boss found out about it.  It didnt take too long for him to call Eddie told him that he was fired from his job.  His whole world was crumbling down and he didnt know what to do about it.

Sandra was in the kitchen making supper and Eddie went to see her.  She didnt even paid attention to him, until he started talking.

Sandra, I need your help. He told her with a serious low voice.

Sandra was in shock and knew that we were talking serious now.  In the past 5 years, he never called her by her name.  He always nicknamed her Mamacita since their first date.

Sandra dropped the knife that she had in her hand, wiped her hands and told Eddie to come with her and sit down at the table.

Eddie took Sandras hand in his and with tears in his eyes, starting talking.

Sandra, I need you more than I ever needed you before.  I know, I screwed up big time.  I lost my car, I lost my job, but most importantly, Im loosing you and without you, there is no more Eddie.  You are my life, you are my soul and I need you now to help me.  He confess to her, with the tears falling down his cheeks.

Sandra knew that this Eddie talking was the one that she could believe and had faith in.  She looked at him in the eyes and told him:

Okay Eddie, this is your last chance, you have to prove me that you want to change your life style, you want to clean your act.  I will be there for you, but one mistake, only one, and you will be on your own forever Eddie.  I cannot take this anymore, I cannot take the fact that Im loosing you slowly.  I cannot take the fact that you are dying in front of me.

After those words, Sandra could feel her tears falling down her cheeks and Eddie just lost it also.  She stood up and hugged Eddie who was still sitting down.  Eddie put his arm around her waist and the only thing he could say were four words:  Te quiero mi amor (I love you my love).

After that day, Eddie decided to go to rehab, and learn how to take advantage of life, that life is beautiful to live but if you screw up, you wont have a second chance.  In this, he also found faith in God and discovered that Life has been giving to him and that if he didnt take advantage of it, he would loose what he loved the most in life.  That thought was what stuck in his mind and was his goal in his rehab. It would do it for himself, to get out of the bad habit, but he would do it for the love of his life, Sandra.